ALOT has happen over the last couple of months!!! ALOT...So much so that I have had the hardest time sitting down to write this. Every time I think about it I just get overwhelmed and get frustrated that I won't convey my heart and my feelings. But today I have decided to just write and if I don't convey my feelings oh well. So here goes...
1. I am pregnant
2. I am pregnant
3. I am pregnant
4. Oh my goodness I am PREGNANT!!!!!
God has answered our prayers and I am 18 weeks pregnant!!!!!! I still can't believe it. We are beyond excited. We found out in February and I am due at the beginning of September. Over the past few months I had finally come to a place were I knew that we might never get pregnant, but that was ok. I was learning to trust God and his plan for our lives even if that didn't mean biological children. Of course there were still days of anger and questions, but after the anger I began to feel peace and assurance in Him like never before. I could breathe a little and let myself relax in His love and then next thing I knew I was going to have a baby, an actual baby!!! God is so good and would still be good even if I never got pregnant. He will be good and His intentions are good for eternity. My prayer continues to be that I will fall more into that trust and relaxation that has brought me peace in my darkest days. I also pray that I will never forget or take for granted the gift He has given me!!
First positive ever!!!